The study of art
I don’t know where I’m at right now.
I keep wanting to go back to what is familiar, the established paths of routine, the comfort and the habits that I know.
I want rest and I want assurance that somehow, everything would sort itself out.
But I’m too impatient, too insecure.
Too anxious to let things unfold in God’s timing, yet too ashamed to bring my brokenness before God.
Lord, I’ve been running from You and just when I thought I finally took the right turn, I found myself back on the highway running away from You, clinging onto what I know.
Lord, I know You have great plans for me; that in Your infinite love and wisdom, You have provided for me and You assure me of sovereignty in every circumstance.
Lord, I know I shouldn’t be counting down – so please help me to not do so.
I know I shouldn’t be comparing; so please help me fix my eyes on You and to guard my heart.
There are so many things that play with my mind. So many possibilities and things to covet.
But Lord, would You faithfully show Yourself to be my Delight?
I keep thinking about the physical comfort that I know, the pleasure that I feel with him.
But I know I’m filled with my own insecurities; my need to know, my desire to have things work out perfectly and easily, my need to overachieve and impress.
But Lord, You have not called me to serve these idols; so would You help me slay these so that I may live in the freedom of Christ!
Lord I long to know Your comfort, Your embrace and Your refuge.
Lord, would You reveal Yourself to me; would You help my unbelief. Would You dispel the burdens in my heart and help me to walk without growing weary.
Father, will You be the strength of my heart? And the sustenance of my soul?
Lord, I yearn to be able to hear You speak; to listen to the softness of the Spirit, to know Your company and Your faithfulness.
Lord, I ask that You would give me wisdom, to be my vision, that I may not live for myself and my idols, but to submit to You.
Lord, I trust that You will deal with the insecurities of my weak heart in due time;
My need to feel good enough, my need to be enough, to do enough. Pretty enough, smart enough, fast enough, likeable enough, funny enough, caring enough, nice enough, talented enough.
Lord, would You show me how deeply You love me and have loved me and will love me?
Lord, would Your grace be sufficient for me; that I may lean on Your sweet grace from one day to the next.
Lord, I ask that You may resolve the messiness in my troubled heart and mind.
I know that You have asked me to seek first Your kingdom and Your righteousness and all else shall me added unto me.
So Lord, help me to trust that You are enough; that I need this time to restore my relationship with You, that I would grow in my intimacy with You in this season.
Lord, may You give me Your grace for the days ahead.
Be Thou my vision
O Lord of my heart
Nought be all else to me
Save that Thou art
Thou my best thought by day or by night
Waking or sleeping Thy presence my Light.
Be Thou my wisdom and Thy my true Word
I ever with Thee and Thou with me Lord!
Thou my great Father and I Thy true Son,
Thou in me dwelling and I with Thee one.
Riches I heed not nor man’s empty praise
Thou mine inheritance now and always!
Thou and Thou only the first in my heart
High King of heaven my treasure Thou art
O God be my everything, be my delight
Be Jesus my glory, my soul satisfied.
High King of heaven my victory won!
Heart of my own heart whatever befall
Still be my vision O Ruler of all